Random Things About My Life and Maybe My Interest

     I'm studying for my finals and I forgot that it was the last day of the year. But whatever, I think last year was the most life changing year of my life. I've experienced so much things like I got a job, discovered the true science which is the interesting and thought provoking one, discovered many great scientists, met a great person which is Nabel, was the class representative, learned to ride a bike, ride a car and had many great trips with my friend, found my way back to Soundcloud, discovered about movies and shows which is very nice and many other things.      The thing that I love the most about this year is that I learned a lot, like a lot, tons of new information like a different way of thinking, the way I view the world and I discovered many things like friendship, the uncertainty of everything and many other things. I've never had thoughts that provoke my way of thinking but this year, I was mind blown quite a lot. So, right now, I'm prepa...

     I actually miss high school because of the things that I've experienced in high school. All the times I stayed home and did nothing and it felt so good. The prime years of my high school would probably the 2012, 2013, and 2014 because I had 2 best friends and would always do things together. We cooked, watched movies, played games, be on the internet, we would roam the village and buy drinks and food. It was a really good time and I miss it so much. I was so sentimental back in high school and I love it. Right now, I'm listening to a song, a soundtrack and it reminds me of high school because I used to watch the show back in high school. This is the song that I'm talking about.      It was really good and it brings all the good memories during those times. I didn't have much problems just like right now, but I just miss it, things were not so complicated. Now, things aren't too complicated either, but really stressful. I mostly would be on my roo...

     We went out yesterday, initially to watch movies, but the cinema was closed, so we went eating instead. So, we went to the Pizza Hut in Giant and we ate there. But, during the ordering process, it was all very confusing, everyone was confused about the menu because none of us were familiar with Pizza Hut but we got through it, we learned and at least, I learned. So, we ordered some pizza, garlic bread, drumsticks and wings, drinks and mushroom soups. It was all very delicious and I think we were kinda happy. We talked about things like our feelings and life in general. This is what we ordered. It was really nice.      Then, Zakwan wanted to buy a bag so we went to Arena I think, and we searched for a bag. Zakwan found a bag he wanted but hesitated to buy it because it was about RM 131 or something like that, but Mang and I persuaded him to buy the bag because when will you upgrade your life, your quality of life and whatever. So, he bought the bag...

     Right now, it is study week, yeayyy. But now, I feel empty at home, like oh my god, haha. It was so funny, like I don't want to start doing the activities immediately, so I just delayed it and lay on the bed all the time. I didn't read the book I want to read and I just don't think I have the right time to do it. But it was actually a really stupid mindset, like you will not find the right time if you won't do it. So yeah, last night I read the book and today I'm watching Nishihara, so I can't risk it by reading or something. My room. I just love it very much because it looks beautiful.    

     I got 4 days 20 hours as of right now until I go home. Woohoo, I can't wait. I still got 2 tests though, and I'm staying at my friend's room because my room at college is too noisy and I can't stand it because they're just so annoying. So, I asked my friend Izzuddin, to stay at his room that he rents at the town, and I stayed here for 5 days already started on 3 December 2019. Phew, I don't know, I'm just really grateful, but the things that sucks here are the toilet and the water quality. I don't know, it is kinda dirty and smelly and disgusting at times. So yeah, I don't like that. It will all end in about 5 days. This is the desk in the room. Very beautiful lighting.      I can't wait for all this to be over. And yeah, the day I was home was really beautiful, I mean I got home on 30 Nov and 31 December, and I just feel so relieved, but not so much since I had to go back here.  A picture I took on the way here to Jengka. The rain sh...

     I dreamt of my parents and my sister, and Kak Ra and Kak Da went for a trip and it was really beautiful. Then, I was a comic book character and I was with Haziq and police was trying to capture a criminal. It was a really fun dream, I love the atmosphere of it            When the police was trying to capture the criminal, it was raining and I was at the highway. It has like really beautiful colors and I think the lamp was like neon, it was night time and raining and we went to nearby convenient store and the place was really beautiful with woody design and really cozy. But my favorite moments from the dream when I was in the car with my parents, cousins and sisters. It was really beautiful with the golden sunlight hitting the vegetation and I don't know, it felt really comfy. I just love them all. And by the way, the police captured the criminal

     I'm currently at the library studying for tomorrow, the Final Year Project. The project that we've been working for 2 months maybe, but we mostly didn't do anything for the first 7 weeks because I don't know, we didn't try to meet our supervisor because she was always busy and she wasn't available most of the time. So we didn't have any ideas after all our ideas were rejected, and she didn't want any ideas related to human, animals or plants. So basically no living things, maybe because of ethical issue.      So I came up with an idea, I mean I searched it online but I came up with it because no one dared to come up with their own idea, so I proposed a title where we check the bacterial susceptibility towards natural ingredients like garlic and turmeric. Then, at first she was hesitated, but after some convincing, she accepted the idea, so after she accepted it, we bought the ingredients that evening and we got working almost immediately. It was ho...

     I just woke up and I dreamed about something and it was kinda wonderful. I dreamed about me and my dad, I think he came to pick me up from college because it ended or whatever. So I remember in the dream where he brought me to a restaurant and we ordered some food. So we sat at a table and we ordered some food, when waiting for the food, I went to other tables because I saw my friends and she worked there and her name was Aisyah, played trombone in school. But in the dream, I forgot her name and I was guessing her name and actually got it, and I ordered a new food at the table, I felt so bad because I left my Dad at his table and I feel so bad.      I love my Dad, I really do and it makes me feel sad thinking about that, so yeah, I ordered a chicken with cheese inside it, it was really delicious, but then the shop is half restaurant and half clothes shop, so I went and tried some underwear, and I took a pretty long time, then I saw my Dad at the cashi...

     I listened to the songs from the Night In The Woods, the rainy song which is really good and it brought me back to 2017, the early months of the year and it just felt so good. I remember being on my bed and I really miss that so much, I want to go home so bad right now. It's not like feeling homesick, but the feeling of missing being home, missing the feeling like being on the bed, the environment.      Right now I'm actually listening to it, and I remember being in the car and all waiting for my mom and it felt really good and I remember Mae, the character from the the game and I really miss Possum Springs. I remember the Halloween stuff and I can relate to Mae so much back then. I always wish that when I got back from college, everything would change like in the game, everything that Mae knew changed.      In 2017, I had the worst panic attack and it lasted for 2 months and I was surrounded with anxiety and this game helped me becaus...

     The break is almost over, tomorrow I'll be heading back to my university. I know, it is sad, but at least I had a great time this break. I mean, I didn't do much, but I had a pretty good time especially when I catch up with those sleep. I slept a lot and I don't feel any guilt. It is just that sometimes I feel kinda empty, lying in my bed doing nothing and just waited for things to happen. I think the break could've gotten more entertaining if I had just move around a bit and just do things like gardening, cleaning the drain and just separating those garbage to recycle it. Or, the biggest thing that I haven't done yet, cleaning my room.      But, I want to say that I had a good time. First, I went home with Kak Da and the day after I got home, we went to Kuantan and I got the book that I've always wanted which is The Future of Humanity by Michio Kaku, one of my favourite person. I got that book in Kuantan because the closest place that sells the book...

     I went to Kuantan yesterday with my cousins, and I bought the book I've always wanted. Kak Ra got a new job and she said she wanted to just have some time off. So we went to Kuantan, I got the book that I found when we sent my sister to IIUM. The book is called the future of humanity and I wrote a post for that I think.  The post I made about the books and my trip to IIUM.  Click that link, it will take you to the post or whatever.      So yes, we went to Berjaya Megamall to get the book because the book is only sold at the Popular Book Store, no where else can be found. And when I got there, it was the last copy of the book on the shelf, I was lucky. Yeay, I got the book finally. That book was the last book of its kind and there was only one copy left on the shelf and I picked it up and went straight to the cashier and I bought it. It cost me RM 70, something like that and it was written by my favourite scientist, which is Michio Kaku. Yea...

     Right now, I kinda miss home. I feel like wanting to go home because when I went home with Kak Da, it felt really good. I was home and alone in my room and everything else was quiet. No screaming dudes, no people trying to talk to you, the fan air actually hits me and I can do many things that came to my mind. But yeah, the only downsides of being home is that I don't have much friends, and I have a very limited amount of friends. That is why one of my goals is to create many friends or make friends with other people around my age that has interests in what I'm interested in. Maybe, but yeah. I want that. t This is us when in the car going home.      My cousin was there and my sister was there too. We were eating and just going about our lives in the car, but that day I ate so much sugar I think. I was lucky that there was no acne pop up on my face and around that day too, I learned something really smokey and cool which was the microbiome. I lear...

     I was just chilling on my bed around midnight and then my friend Din called me and he asked me to join him to Kuantan to watch movies. I thought to myself, should I go because I have another trip next week with different group of friends, but one of my friend Ain is busy, so she can't go anywhere and then I decided to just join the trip. But I have to be the driver, so yeah.     Acap, Din, Daniel and me were the people on the trip. Din was stressed out about something so I figured maybe I could just go and have some fun, plus I really wanted to see 'Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark' so I joined the trip. On the way there, we bought some Dunkin' Donuts and then when we're finally at the ECM, we bought the movie tickets, everyone was watching Scary Stories.      To kill some time while waiting for the movie, we went to 4 fingers, because it was just opened. Daniel and Acap said it was delicious they'd cry or whatever. So yeah, we ate that....

     Today is Saturday and it's not even a week yet but the amount of stress and work is pretty crazy and I would say that it was a productive week and today was productive too. I'm the class representative for this semester and I have to collect money from people, collect books, be on schedule for everything, keep in contact with the lecturers and I have to keep up with every update. I even joined a program called KESAS which is the program for the first semester kids.      I even played for the band to day because TMZ which is a teacher or something, his son got married and they held an eating ceremony and it is still going as I'm writing this.      I watched the Bad Genius and I felt great because it gives me spirit to study and I watched X Men Dark Phoenix too, but it is just okay. Well at first, I was a little homesick when I first arrived here in Jengka, but as the days go on, it felt okay as I meet my friends and all. It was great....

     My favourite time of the year is probably the last four months of the year because it is fall and it is kinda rainy in my region of the country.

     Next week on monday maybe, I will be going back to college and thinking about that already made me feel homesick. I don't know,  I don't wanna go back there but at the same time, it is all so exciting. I got new roommates and one old roommates back in the first semester and I feel really excited. We'll be in the same class me and my old roommate and his name is Aiman people call him Aiman Depend.      I hope this semester, everyone will be quiet because I will be in peace and I'll try to study more. I guess I will spend my time just on studying even on the first week. In my head, it was all very exciting because I picture myself at the study desk studying with the study lamp and all. Maybe I will be at the library study my butt off.      Some of my friends won't be in the same class as me because they failed some subjects and they're required to be in a particular class, so they can't be together with me which is kinda sad. I'll...

     Sometimes I hate myself especially during those times where I couldn't control myself. I really hate it. It led to stupid decision making and I hate myself for it. I need a big willpower. I will thrive. I will do my best to be the best version of myself. I will do it.

     Well, I went out with my primary school friends for the first time ever or should I say elementary school friends but whatever. Yeah, we were quiet at first, didn't talk much and things were pretty much awkward. I was pretty nervous especially with beautiful girls, I don't know why but I got really nervous and I would avoid eye contact because she was too beautiful. So yeah whatever, but that doesn't mean that I have a crush on them, just nervous.      We at first were browsing for movies to watch and then we picked "Ready or Not", it was really good and I loved every second of it even though the movie has a lot of profanity and near intimate scene it was good. So fun to watch and kinda unpredictable, especially at the end of the movie. After picking the movie, we went for food, we tried Boat Noodle, I was clueless about the menu of the Restaurant but I managed to get 2 noodles and a chicken thigh, a grilled one. While eating we talked and things wer...

     This day started off normal. I was awake and then I prayed. I went to buy bread and I napped. Then I woke up. I ate and talked to my mom and little sister. I found out that my room was kinda dark, so I opened the curtains and let the lights in. It looked kinda beautiful my room. It looked well lit. Then I organized the room. I watched some shows and I don't know, it felt good.      It felt long, it felt good and I don't even know why I felt that way. I guess maybe because the house is clean and I played with the cat. Everything felt organized and I ate chocolate sandwich. I ate rice with beef stew and a grilled eggplant. It felt really good honestly, I don't know why. I love the way my house looked and I thought about future jobs, what I want to do in the future. I want to be a researcher, something with science or a lecturer. But the pay is very small for a lecturer of that level.      The evening, it was kinda cloudy and it rained ...

     Today, I peed during my sleep and that was the first time that I peed for the last 13 years. Haha, I drank too much water before sleep because the color of my urine wasn't satisfying, so I drank like so much water and before sleep I felt like going to the toilet, but I ignored it.      Then the morning came and I felt funny, and there it was, a wet blanket with no smell of urine because I drank too much water.

     During those days when I was little, I got excited to the idea of making pizza and ice cream because I thought I couldn't do all that. But now, with all the technology and the modernizing world, technology comes easy and so do all the things that are related to food.      Western food no longer feels foreign, thanks to the internet, food that are trending on the social media comes easy to my country. For example, those bubble tea craze. I only saw it on Instagram about the Asians that live in the States and they love those bubble tea. And in a few months, they came to Malaysia.      So yeah, I took all those technology for granted. I used to be really excited and now it feels normal. I think I should be grateful for all the things that are granted to me. This laptop, the phone, the car. During those times, cars, books and many other things were hard to get. Now, it is all so easy despite being a developing country. Yeah, now I'm doin...

     Yes, I love to write. In fact, I've been writing for the past years and I love to document what I think and encounter. I take pictures and I post them on twitter and facebook for my sake. I do it out all of my interest.      I also write in my notebook. I write what I feel, what I do and what I'm planning to do. So the notebook is like my planner and I write the event of my life. What I feel toward someone, it helps in capturing what I feel and I can see it in a different perspective.      I went to the public library the day before yesterday or 2 days past, and I found a lot of great books, but they're all old. Yeah, the culture of reading in my country isn't very strong at the moment, people don't seem to read books and even if they do they often read about fiction and all. Or maybe the library just doesn't add new books or rarely adds new book. But whatever, I'm planning to go on an expedition in going to all libraries in Malays...

     I finally got the job at Big Bad Wolf.  I met a lot of people and they are really great people. One person I know have been to Russia to study bio medical, one is an accountant, some in other biological major and some are sports science and some are PhD students in Mathematics. One person is studying Mathematical Science and it was great to see a lot of people with different studying major.      I got to talk about my interest and they talk about their experiences. I met people with varied age range. Some are 29, some are 25 or 26.     I work as a cashier and the first day was tiring.      Cashier is not an easy job in some sense and in some other sense, it was pretty easy. I met a lot of costumers and some were my teachers and some are my friends. A lot of things bought are kids' things. Toys, books. Yes, Malaysia is a developing country with fast growing population. That explains why the kids are in high quantit...

     First of all, I made a lot of goals to accomplish. I want to read books, improve my communication skill and all other stuff. Now, a week has passed and I can say that I accomplished a lot, though not all. I still get awkward around strangers and I can't really do things around stranger but I'll try again next time.      Yesterday, I cooked something and I spent some time at the park wandering and exploring and I get anxious when there were other people around. I'll get through it I think. Then I cooked soy sauce chicken or something like that. I took this when walking around the park.      I spent some time with my grandparents, brought them to the banks to do their businesses, picked up some rambutan and all. Then I went to the libraries, got some books, organised my room or tidy up my room, played the clarinet, went to see a hockey game because we couldn't swim because it was raining and there were lightnings so we watched the h...

     I just got home from college, yeay, kinda excited but now I don't know what to do. But no worries, I've planned a lot of things to do this semester break. I hope I can accomplish all of them, one can hope and does the things maybe. I'll try my best. I still haven't worked out the details yet but I will, now I will just focus on doing what I want. Maybe tomorrow I'll start my routine. I took this photo after my examination, a chemistry exam.      I want to do a lot of things, I want to be able to find new friends, to be able to communicate well, to practice self defense and martial art, I want to know more about nature, I'll be visiting libraries and try to focus a lot more of my time on books.      I used to sleep a lot every semester break, I hope this semester break will be different. I'm tired of all the people at the college, everyone was loud and all I want is silence. But they kept making a lot of noises and it wore me down...

One thing I notice about me is that I tend to post things during Raya, it felt weird and it felt kinda good. I started doing this when I was in form 1 or when I was 13. It brings a lot of memories, those times were really good because I used to have friends coming over to my house even though they're just Faiz and Aman, but they mean the whole world to me. They were my best friends, but now things seem to change. Everyone is on their own way and I miss those times.      During those times, we used to play games, go for a walk somewhere, watch movies, watch the Japanese ghost stuff and I wonder if they're real but not gonna watch it now, but during those times, everything seemed perfect like I was happy. I felt so happy during those times, but now I'm happy too, but in a different way. I met new people in university, and at times, they were one of the best moments of my life. I got the best friends that I never had, I finally can be me and I can escape from whatever it i...

Yeay, it is the first day of ramadan, and I don't have any class today. I guess that's a good thing. Well, I'm going to talk about the day before maybe. Yeah Yesterday, I went to see the horses because there are horses events in my college but I overslept that morning and Tun and Haziq slept in too. We've been working hard or too many procrastination maybe but overall, we're all pretty tired me included. So we missed the events, I want to try shooting arrows or archery. I've been wanting to do that since seeing BRAVE maybe. It was a beautiful movie. The horse, he was behaving really good. The one that kicked me is tied to a tree. But before seeing the horses, we went to find food or to eat lunch simply said. We ate at RAFF and we means Tun and I. I think Raff has a really good quality. Their food never disappoint me, they're either really good or good. Maybe below average at some occasions but maybe they're just having a rough day. Thei...

Hey, now semester 3 is done and I'm at home doing nothing. So I just want to post things because I haven't done that in a while. Just a random tree. These past few weeks were such an emotional roller coaster, I learned a lot of things. The seniors of the last semester were leaving and one of them is such a good friend. So sad to see him leave but it's okay. I hope he's all happy and his name is Kimi.         Band is over and I'm so glad it did. It gave me so much trouble and so many unnecessary stress. It created stressful situations and I think what the commander did was pretty wrong. But I'm glad it was over. We made a show and many audiences came and we were all pretty proud of ourselves and I guess I did too. We handled many events; AGM, HOPE, and I guess dinner. Not too much but it's pretty stressful.      Along the way, I met new friends and it was a great experience. They are juniors and I guess we'll keep working on that. Me stu...