It's almost Raya

One thing I notice about me is that I tend to post things during Raya, it felt weird and it felt kinda good. I started doing this when I was in form 1 or when I was 13. It brings a lot of memories, those times were really good because I used to have friends coming over to my house even though they're just Faiz and Aman, but they mean the whole world to me. They were my best friends, but now things seem to change. Everyone is on their own way and I miss those times.

     During those times, we used to play games, go for a walk somewhere, watch movies, watch the Japanese ghost stuff and I wonder if they're real but not gonna watch it now, but during those times, everything seemed perfect like I was happy. I felt so happy during those times, but now I'm happy too, but in a different way. I met new people in university, and at times, they were one of the best moments of my life. I got the best friends that I never had, I finally can be me and I can escape from whatever it is in my village.

     But still, I miss my old friends because without them, I don't know what I would do in those times. I'm pretty sure that I would be miserable at those times. But whatever, friendships can be bonded again, I just have to work on it.

     Okay, it is the 23rd day of  Ramadan, keep pushing. I need to change my mindset, I can't let my emotions control my body and behaviour. Sometimes, I just have to let them show, but I have to do the right thing instead of the wrong things.
I was walking in KL and I found this, it looks beautiful. Loved it.
     I want to get a really good job that I like and pays well. I'm gonna have to work really hard. Please Faris. Yeah, you can do it even if it feels suck to do it but do it anyway as long as it is good for you.

   
This cat has constellation on it. It looks cool and I really love the lighting of the place. 
     Mom and dad picked me up along the way to send my sister to IIUM Gombak, and that night we went to Sunway Putra Mall, it was the closest to our hotel. So I just wonder and I found those pictures that I took. I should be grateful that I have a lot of things even the little things. I just have to be grateful, a lot of people don't have this and a lot of people have even more than me. But you are you Faris, you can't change yourself in some way and you can change yourself in some aspect.

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