Sentimental, Missing Home

     I listened to the songs from the Night In The Woods, the rainy song which is really good and it brought me back to 2017, the early months of the year and it just felt so good. I remember being on my bed and I really miss that so much, I want to go home so bad right now. It's not like feeling homesick, but the feeling of missing being home, missing the feeling like being on the bed, the environment.
     Right now I'm actually listening to it, and I remember being in the car and all waiting for my mom and it felt really good and I remember Mae, the character from the the game and I really miss Possum Springs. I remember the Halloween stuff and I can relate to Mae so much back then. I always wish that when I got back from college, everything would change like in the game, everything that Mae knew changed.
     In 2017, I had the worst panic attack and it lasted for 2 months and I was surrounded with anxiety and this game helped me because Mae had anxiety too. I kinda miss waiting at the bus station for my dad to pick me up after getting home from college. I really want to go home right now. I don't know, I just miss a lot of things, college is not enjoyable as it used to be, back then it was really enjoyable, now many things are hanging on my shoulders. I'm so tired most of the time and the people around my aren't helping, they are really loud and annoying. I can't stand them at times.
     But, in 5 more weeks, I'll be home, I can't wait and my diploma will end too in January 2020 and another chapter will be waiting for me. I kinda can't wait for degree life, kinda. I don't know what will happen in degree, but I want to do better. I hope everyone is focused on their education and everyone would be quiet, so I want to go to places where all people are nerds or focused on studying, not like where I'm at right now.
I find this picture beautiful. I love the lighting.

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