Dream #1

     I just woke up and I dreamed about something and it was kinda wonderful. I dreamed about me and my dad, I think he came to pick me up from college because it ended or whatever. So I remember in the dream where he brought me to a restaurant and we ordered some food. So we sat at a table and we ordered some food, when waiting for the food, I went to other tables because I saw my friends and she worked there and her name was Aisyah, played trombone in school. But in the dream, I forgot her name and I was guessing her name and actually got it, and I ordered a new food at the table, I felt so bad because I left my Dad at his table and I feel so bad.
     I love my Dad, I really do and it makes me feel sad thinking about that, so yeah, I ordered a chicken with cheese inside it, it was really delicious, but then the shop is half restaurant and half clothes shop, so I went and tried some underwear, and I took a pretty long time, then I saw my Dad at the cashier and I ran there because I didn't want to leave him. And I paid for the stuff I guess.
     So the next thing was when we were in a car, he drove somewhere to take me home, then we stopped in the middle of the road because something was blocking or whatever, can't remember, then we saw some kids and I saw a pig, we told the kids to stay away from the pig. It was night time in my dream and the road is like a hill, there's a road that intersects to the right and it was heading uphill, and there was the pig, and a baby elephant, he was really cute and I went to touch it and hug it, then he bit my hand and I was struggling to let go, hahaha, kinda funny. Then we just when went up the hill walking, and I just remember feeling in awe with the beauty of the environment, really beautiful. But I can't describe it because I can't remember how it looked like. I write this because I want to remember what I dreamed about because it was just too beautiful, I know it didn't happen but it was just too beautiful and I miss my Dad.
     When I was little, Dad would always bring my siblings and I somewhere, it was lovely and really miss my Dad, but now things have changed and we are all grown apart and it was kinda sad, I don't want that to happen anymore, but it was hard as my dad would always sit at the living room of the house doing his work and everything. I know it will be hard when he gets older because he smokes, but I don't know, I hope he changes. And I'm gonna try my best to do what's right, I want to interact with him more and I want to interact with my families more, I want to be better, I just I don't know, sometimes I say things to much but I want to do it but the spirit would go away. I miss my Dad.

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