The Feeling After Band Camp

    Right now I'm at home enjoying Friday, it's a beautiful day, a little bit hot but the skies are blue and I'm listening to Rihanna's We Found Love. I wanted to talk about the feeling I've had after a band camp ended when I was in college. It was a beautiful experience.
    When I was in college, I joined a band and it was bad, I hated it so much actually to this very day. So, they have this camp in semester break, meaning I had to go to college during semester break to practice and get my mental tortured by those horrible people, yeah great tradition, I know. This camp started and many abuses were seen and it was bad, some of my friends got injured, fractured hands, dislocated feet, the commanders were hella useless. They were incompetent in handling us, they couldn't even play their instruments correctly, and I think they were just plain stupid. 
    I can't remember a day where I enjoyed the camp because all I ever wished was for the camp to end, and a week later, it ended. It was a beautiful moment for me as it felt like escaping out of prison experience. I loved the feeling of being free, that's why I hate jobs that are demanding that don't care about their workers and employees. We should have work life balance because it's not like we're going to devote our life to your company unless that's what we love for example a journalist that loves their jobs.
    So, after packing my belongings, we went to Jengka Sentral, a place in Jengka where buses gather. So we ate and talked about the horrible experience we just had. Then we went home, I was so happy when we got on the bus and the bus started moving. The day was beautiful and I listened to this song from the drama While You Were Sleeping, it was beautiful. It took about 8 hours for the bus to arrive at the bus station and my sister and cousin, Kak Ra, came to pick me up. 
This is a pic that means freedom to me I guess 😂. Every time I see this, I always remember the beautiful feeling of being home and surrounded by loved ones.

    

We bought this on our way home to my Granny's. It was delicious but a bit expensive for us.
    We went to pray after picking me and we visited this frozen yogurt shop, Tutti Frutti. It was good though, I felt very fulfilled during this time, after all, I was free from the camp and now I can do everything I wanted, that's what thought, but I spent the next few days doing nothing anyway.

That is my sister at a Thai Food Festival.

    After a few days being at home, trying to gather what's left of the semester break, there was a Thai Food Festival at a nearby town from where I live. So, I went there with my sister and bought some food, saw some things at the festival where there are things where kids play, like a mini funfair, but it was all very humble and not very grand, so it was okay, didn't attract my attention. But during those times in 2017 and early 2018, I was hardly excited because I've had some troubles with my mental state, so I find things to be blunt and I was numb to most things. I've always searched for things that would satisfy me, but to no avail, it was short lived. But now things are different, I am okay now, I find things to be something, it was somewhat similar, but I have different views of the world now.
    My sister worked at a bakery house for 2 weeks or something, but she quit the job. After a few weeks, I went back to college to continue studying for Semester 2 and life goes on you know. 
    That's what I wanted to talk about, the feeling of being home after a mentally exhausting week, I hate talking about the band in college, but I think this feeling is worth mentioning. I do love my friends, my family and my life in general. I love being happy and free.

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