Semester 2

Well, now I'm in the middle of the second semester. This semester has been pretty stressful and I made a lot of good memories too along the way. I went to Kuantan with my friends, it's such a great trip and in the process of doing that I actually skipped some training and it was really worth it. I realized that my friends are more important than any other things that kept me stuck at the university. Well, my grades are important too but right now, it's PRU time so I'm at my grandma's being nostalgic and all, I feel something that I haven't felt for quite a while. I feel relaxed for the first time in like 3 weeks or something. It's such a relief to be home and I actually kinda miss my friends, I sometimes feel like my life is empty, I don't even know why, I don't know what excites me anymore but now I feel excited to go swimming. Yesterday was great I spent some time eating with a good friend of mine. He was great and all but I think we need to get rid of the awkwardness between us, I'm awkward and he's awkward but I think we're improving I guess. I'm trying to be more friendly and I should talk to people more, but sometimes my anxiety or something kinda make me stuck. It prevents me from doing whatever I want to do. I guess it came from too much stress, hopefully next semester won't be this stressful even though we have a pretty big event, we're going to perform in a big audience maybe to see us but honestly I think they will just come for the coupon the university has to offer.
Teluk Cempedak, we actually missed the bus so we came here instead.
I think I should pick a hobby, I'm sorry I'm kinda rambling right now. I just typed the things that came to my mind and my thoughts are random so maybe it won't make any sense, but I don't think many people actually read this so yeah, I'll just type whatever I want to. I love my friends and I love what I have right now. I hope if things are changing, they are changing for the better I hope. I want to strengthen my relationship with my friends and I think I should improve my social skills like talking to people I guess. That's all I love my family too.

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